04/22/09 12:53am

My birthday has officially passed...
WTF. I was home all day SICK.

Sure I'm sure there are people out there who have had worse birthdays, but why does this day have to suck for me?

It made me realize how insignificant I am... Not a single friend called me to say "Happy Birthday".
Not a single birthday card in the mail.
Not even a simple text message!

Ack... Am I really that meaningless and disposable? Friends from the past who's birthday I still remember, and they don't even remember me anymore.

I sometimes question the point in living.
I thought I had the answer...
All the things we go through, I told myself it's because we have to so we can continue to enjoy life...

People work and go to school to get money, so they can buy things they enjoy or go out and have fun... Wasn't that the point? To enjoy your life?

I'm not enjoying my life at all. There's been nothing enjoyable about it. Sure there are other reasons people have, like to leave a legacy or make a mark in history, to be remembered...

But I'm not even doing any of that. I'm just existing... And let me tell you, existing sucks. Cuz whether I'm enjoying it or not, I still need money to exist, so I still need to go to work and school...

I used to think that as long as I had my friends, everything would be ok... But, I feel like I don't even have them anymore. I really feel so alone right now.

Yeah, this is a stupid emo rant. If you don't like it then go suck a cock and choke on it.